Friends Forever? I think not.

I no longer believe in. And I really haven't since I was a lot younger. I may be young now, but I've learned so many hard lessons in my life. One of those lessons being you have to really watch who you trust and who you let into your life.

Over the years, I have lost so many friends and I've been okay with that. To me, when a friend breaks your trust or does something to hurt you... they are no longer important because they are there to be just that, a friend, someone you trust and lean on right? Or am I wrong here? Because for some reason lately... all of my friends have been really really disappointing me.

First... I make the HUGE mistake of hooking my best guy friend up with a relatively close girl friend of mine.... huge mistake. I know how he is in relationships and I should have known with the way she is... she would have a leash around his neck instantly... and of course... 2 months later. his collar is way tight and they are in love and practically an old irritating married couple. I was sick of seeing them both get hurt by people... and thought ... hey this might work... even though all our friends told me not to do it... it was a mistake... my family even told me not to do it... why I never listen to my mom... I'll never know... she is always right. I don't even want to go any further on this one... I irritate myself with that ....

Then you have the girl friend (which for me... I never trust girls... because they are catty, untrustworthy, and would screw you over in a heartbeat for some cute guy they think likes them) who is your friend all along until it comes time for it to be an inconvenience to them.. they are too focused on getting what they want... sticking their nose in the air... spending $200 on a brand new outfit to go out with that cute guy (for coffee only, and yes really spent $200) then treat you like a piece-o because they think they are hot shat because a man in interested in them. Or their friend is getting married (she is in the wedding and you are of course a guest) and that friend getting married gets you in trouble with your boss (cause she happens to be of higher rank than you) and she lies to your mutual friend about it and your friend believes it and treats you like a piece-o for thinking like you do.

Following this?

As I'm typing it, I'm thinking to myself... what were you thinking?! Why even stick around.. when that's not even remotely close to all she's put your through (mainly over guys of course).

So that's three friends down (out of a close knit 5 friend group not including yourself)

The last one... screws you over on a concert you've been waiting months to see.... and knows how important the show is to you. and doesn't bother to call you and tell you... instead she decides to throw it in the conversation while you are calling to find out where she is....

four down. (cause yes, that was wrong to me)

One more is left. I can only IMAGINE what will happen with her because she really doesn't hide anything. If she doesn't like it... you'll know. If you look fat, you'll know. If you have a booger in your nose, you'll know. She thinks that idea is lame, you'll know. And that's how I am. tell it like it is. That's the way it should be.

So I await the next step.

And see... at this point in my life... I don't want a boyfriend... I want to be young and go out with my friends... except they are all screwing me over..... for relationships.

I might as well stop trying to have friends... and settle down with a guy... and fight with him.

Right?